Challenge

I would love to say the reason I haven't written a blog because I was on vacation but I've been a train wreck with the diet. I've thoroughly disgusted myself with the food I've eaten and it all changes tomorrow. If you're on Facebook you heard all about my funnel cake nightmare.

About 2 weeks ago my gym sent me an email about about a challenge for 5 weeks. I went for orientation this afternoon and it will be interesting. I need this though and for 5 weeks I can do anything. It focuses on nutrition and fitness. I really like that it has a 2 hour meeting on Sunday afternoon. 1 hour will be spent talking about nutrition and the other hour will be a group workout. It will get me focused for the upcoming week.

I have to record everything I eat and drink and she recommended getting a notebook (you know I love school supplies). I am pretty excited about my notebook. If it is cute and I like it the more likely I am to keeping up with it.

We are all having a last meal so I am having wings, mac and cheese and ice cream. After tomorrow...no more!

BFFASS just asked me if I was excited and I answered a little nervous but I think I am excited. Making more friends in my gym, focusing 5 weeks on getting healthy and who knows what else can happen!

Hey if you aren't watching DietTribe on Lifetime you should take a peek!

Smooches!

Hot Mess

is what I am and I am pretty freaked out by it. I really want to tell BeanPole where to shove it. I needed that challenge to begin to give me something else to concentrate on instead of the fact that I am having a mid life crisis. Good thing I've found out that Shirley T. is teaching a class in the morning at the gym.....I need you in my life Shirley T.

It started while I was in Charlotte and just has continued to get worse or judging how I look at it...clearer. I am one of those that believes in signs and I am pretty freaked out that everything is pointing to change. I am going to try to regulate my breathing for a bit and see what happens. See if I am just reacting to mid life crisis or if it is like turning 30 where all I needed was a drastic 10 inch haircut as change. I think the next few months will be very interesting for me as the past 48 hours have been very eye opening and mind opening.

Update on the CLT girls.......they're all amazing and doing so good. So proud of them. Burns has sculpted arms that give Michelle O a run for her money from boot camp, GatorMolester completed and rocked at a 1/2 marathon on Saturday so we were able to celebrate, Red looks amazing with a new do and her workout self and Sting is just looking great and healthy but more importantly she seemed happy. The big difference was the sister in law who is looking like a rockstar....down 9 pounds and you can definitely tell. You girls are amazing and I miss you all so much!

"The key to change is to let go of fear." Roseanne Cash

WTF EF??????????

So I am blowing down I-85 and the blackberry beeps to let me know I had an email and I saw it was from bean pole Molly and the email subject said "Change to Challenge" and I thought nothing of it until I opened it and saw the news.

Granted I should've known with the week I've had that it wouldn't be good news. Well that isn't fair to my week but it has been crazy and hectic. So I click on the email and this is what BeanPole had to say....

Hello!I'm sorry to have to make such a last minute change, but based on the feedback we've gotten and the plans we have for the upcoming Challenge, we have decided to post-pone it until January. We have a lot of great ideas to make the next Challenge bigger and better than before! We want to provide you with all the tools you need to lose weight and now that we've gotten some constructive feedback from past participants we feel that we can offer the best program come 2010.

Ummmmmmmmmmm BeanPole did you know that it has taken me some time to wrap my brain around this challenge? I've stressed about my work meetings that coincide with Tuesday and Thursday since the day I signed up for this challenge. WTF BeanPole!!!!!!!!! I've worried about football games and other social dates that would fall from September 22 to December 16th and you postpone to January with an email ......ummmmmmmmmmm this deserved a phone call.

So my friend who had also signed up for the challenge called me and she said "have you seen the email and what do we do?" Good Question Wino! I name her Wino with all due respect. She is a wine sales rep for one of my favorite wineries. She is checking around while I am with the most precious people in my life.

Remember a couple of weeks ago when I said one of my BFF's and I were going to enjoy life and make the most of it. After my crazy weeks of work and being stressed out I've run away from life and I surprised the niece and nephew at the bus stop and now I am back to normal...all I needed was some little people lovin!

Ok I am off to play with the ballerina who is about to return home from ballet! I was with the Team Captain earlier throwing the football and it is a pretty good arm workout I must say....maybe Wino and I will hang out in parks and throw the football while we decide what to do with our fitness program.....to be continued...unfortunately!

Who ever...

came up with the phrase have your cake and eat it too is a genius. I've thought for years about the phrase when people would say it and think who the hell would have cake and not eat it but I did exactly that on Sunday night when we were celebrating my Daddy's 70th Birthday! I was prepared for that but I did throw a slight temper tantrum when June Cleaver pulled out the cookies. She puts everything from Reeses pieces to cereal and rolls it around in white chocolate and drops it....to die for and I didn't eat any of those either. It was a great party but I peaced out pretty quickly to avoid temptation.

Update on Burns

She finished her first week of boot camp like a champ! So proud of her!!!!!!!!

Explanation of freak out mode yesterday

Hola Peeps!

I got an email from Alligator Molester this morning that I want to share. Realize that I don't usually do this but I figured if she was thinking it you might be thinking the same things.


why are you freaking????? yes, i read your blog and that's why i'm excited! it sounds like it has everything you want/need!!!! motivation, fun activities, you LOVE knowing what others eat, etc etc.....

how in the world is there anything to freak about???? it sounds PERFECT!!!!!!!

I think the real reason as to why I was freaking out is because it is a lot easier to sit around and say "Oh I am looking for a program and would love to do one". It has been great watching my friends sign up for programs and cheer them on but when it comes down to signing up and committing ME to changing MY life than that is a whole other story...at least to me it is. Writing/Journaling what I eat everyday for 3 months sounds like a daunting task. Having to go through an election cycle and not be able to drink beer after phone banking sounds miserable to me. Admitting I have a horrible relationship with food and need to break up with chips....well that sends me into meltdown mode.

Don't get me wrong....Big Girl is ready for it and I am sure after the premiere of Biggest Loser on the 15th I will be the first one to show up for the challenge...just the unknown, being embarrassed that my weight has gotten to the point I need to do a challenge and the wondering how my life will be changed is what has me freaked out.

There are lots of things that I am excited about: my makeover and new years eve outfit, being the Hot Mama that I know is dying to come out, being excited to buy clothes for the Spring, being able to toy with the idea of becoming a runner......the list goes on and on.

Today PimpDaddy said this to me "it is all about the mental aspect that no matter what physical task is put in front of you, your mind limits you. tells you cannot do things, it looks up at the mountain and says wow that is pretty high. well if you start climbing and you put some time in you realize you can get up that mountain." Well my mind has 11 Days to realize we're about to climb Mt. Everest!

Ummmm and can we discuss how it seems everybody is on the good health train? Not sure if it is the rumors about being kicked out of health insurance if you're in poor health or what but by God everybody is talking about getting healthy!

Making It Happen

Just so you know it is official as of today! I got this email today from my new BFF Molly....


Hi Robin,

Just wanted to let you know that I received your form and payment. So glad you'll be joining us!

Molly