Thursday, January 29, 2009

Britney isn't the only one in a Circus

Cravings: 2 or 3 for beer

Holla Hookers! I know it has been a while but this budget situation in my state is stressing me out and making me work some crazy hours.....I would like to add no fast food has been consumed. Enough about that because I have some really good news to share....Ready?

1. The trip with Coco is booked and I will be heading to Aruba for a week. I have 72 days to work my sexy body into even better shape. (Can you tell I am practicing positive thinking?) I have found out that the resort does have water aerobics every day at 11am. Don't ask me about all the awesome restaurants Coco and I have found and why do I already have my entrees picked out?

2. I had weigh in yesterday and I am down 9.8 pounds and 7.5 inches so I am pretty excited. Nice and consistent. Very excited and looking forward to Feb. 28th to see more results. I have switched trainers and there is no more Gigi. I couldn't deal with her. I can't come up with a knickname for Melissa because she is a 4th grade teacher (and a member of VEA) and this is her second job. She is soooooo stressed and worried about losing her job that I can't say anything mean about her.

3. I am finally getting a nice tax return. After years of paying I have to mention this fact. It will be spent immediately on furniture the minute it is in my account. I am coming up on a year of being a homeowner so I have got to get busy finishing the back part of the house before my peeps arrive on March 27th!

4. Girls weekend is this weekend. Remember in my list of vain incentives on weight loss this was the first one. I will let you know if any of the girls notice. At this point I don't care if they do because I feel better already!

Ok enough of the celebrations!

Don't read this if you aren't ready for me to trash talk. Last night I was so damn excited to do aerobics with my girl Shirley T. and I walked into find WildOne scrunched in the most unbearable position in a Core class. She was red and looked shriveled up. She wasn't laughing at all. After her class was over she whispered to me that this was no Shirley T. class. WildOne was already broke down. Shirley T. was off and a crack pipe named Carla was going to teach our class. I had dealt with a crack bitch on Saturday who tried to kill me so I was ready. OH HELL NO........I always claim my spot in class and most everybody knows where I stand. This out of date 80's bitch invades my spot. I put a picture up right corner and she is the one in the yellow. It isn't her but her twin! Headband, tights and spandex and she had more hot pink blush on her cheeks than June Cleaver has ever worn in her life. You know June love her a little touch of blush. I simmered down but the minute we started I was scared for my life. She didn't just march.....she looked like she was winding up to pitch a pro baseball game. I couldn't look at WildOne because we would just crack up. We did a grapevine and 80's bitch started jumping and turning all over the place. I can't even describe it. The instructor couldn't even look over at our corner. Remember I am the most uncoordinated person in my classes but this woman was out of control. I hate the step and I was so ready for it to start so she would be limited to space. Oh no......80's bitch was all over my place. I didn't feel like I got a good workout because I was trying to fend for my life. Her arms and legs were everywhere. She left halfway thru step probably to go reapply blush and I could focus on the last of the class. Girls that I will be with this weekend I will reenact this for you....after a few beers! I think I focused too much because it hurts to breathe. At the end of the class WildOne said "I can't wait for the blog on this one". After we caught our breath we stormed the front desk and made sure Shirley T. would be back next week. Why do I think I kept calling her Shirley Q? OOOPS!

Happy Birthday Alligator Molester! Enjoy yourself this weekend and drink lots of Milla Lites for me!

Friday, January 23, 2009

Is the tranistion taking place?

Cravings: this morning for cigarettes = 8

I didn't make it out of bed yesterday morning to get to the gym but it was probably a good thing since I had rocked it out in aerobics with Shirley T and my body need to rest for a few hours. I had brought my gym clothes with me to work so I could go after work. I did my weights and luckily there were no old people getting in my way and I was able to have a great workout on the treadmill...thanks to the new US that had pictures of Fergie and Josh's wedding.....I so love him and can't wait to see him on the beach in their honeymoon pictures.

I was looking forward to going home and baking the fish that I had stolen from my parent's neighbor while I took a nice relaxing shower. Furball aka Ella Bella found them while they were thawing so needless to say Furball needs to go on a diet and learn how to mop my floor. I went into a mode of panic....what was I going to eat? There was no way I could eat chili again. I could be bad because I know my other future fit friends had given into cravings this week but I went to Ukrop's and fixed a salad. Ukrop's is a scary place for me because their fried chicken calls my name the minute I walk in the door....I survived and was pretty proud of myself.

Today is pretty rough with wanting a cigarette and I am not sure what that is all about. Work is insane and every single one of my colleagues and everyone else is irritating the hell out of me. I am starting to think about being on the treadmill getting my stress out instead of smoking and drinking....maybe the tranistion is starting to take place?

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Shirley T.

Beers: 0
Cigarettes: 0
Cravings: 2

I think she will be the reason I am successful this time. Last night's aerobic adventures with WildOne were hysterical. I bopped into the gym ready for it and there was WildOne so happy to see me. I don't think we thought of it as a workout. I know I thought of it as play time. Shirley T. remembered us and you know that went right to our heads. If you could see me on the risers you would know that I think of it as my playtime!

The starting music wasn't fun like last time because there were older people there (Please see the blog on Older People in archive posts). She did play our favorite 4 step song and it just makes me feel like I am in the club. I would never break a sweat like that in a club with the menz! You will be happy to know that Coochie was still played.

She made us add the risers and I once again was a disaster. Why did she call me out and say "don't force it darling.....feel it and do what your body wants to do".....WTF? My body would want to be at home on the couch watching the reviews of Michelle's inaugural ball gown. WildOne kept shouting "don't force it". I will force her to Dairy Queen to get me a blizzard!

We got through it with no broken bones but I am sore today. My legs are killing me and they hate me. My stomach muscles hurt and I am not sure if that is from the pilates part or from laughing at WildOne when she went to do a body roll and she looked like an ex stripper about to make her money for the night. I think she really wants to be a belly dancer in her next life.

Too bad WildOne locked her keys in her car and we had to go to never never land to get her extra key. By the time we ate Big Girl was starving!!!! Ok I am off to the gym! Peace Out train riders!

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

I Got A Feeling

Good Vibrations

I stole this from Food, Sweat and are the rules:

1. Put your iTunes on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

Giving it up for your love-Delbert McClinton

And I Ran - Hidden in Plain View
(Hmm...not sure what to make of that one!)

Theme from Rocky......cracking up

If You'll be my bodyguard-Paul Simon

The Bartender's Song-Dave Matthews

Wave on Wave-Pat Green

We want the Funk-George Clinton

Cocaine-Eric Clapton

I wish it would rain down now-Phil Collins.....cracking up on this one

Bad Medicine-Bon true

I'm Yours....Jason not correct

don't stop till you get enough-michael jackson.......june cleaver will love that one

Pocket full of sunshine-natasha betingfield

P.Y.T. Michael Jackson

Shattered...Turn the Car Around OAR

Song of the South-Alabama

Proud Mary by CCR

Summer of '69 .......can we change that to '09 please?

Human by the Killers

Will you still love me tomorrow? Medley

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?I got a feeling-Billy Currington

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Change is here!

My first blog I talked about how Obama's change had inspired me to change my lifestyle. I can't let today go by without commenting on what took place all day. I am soooooo proud of our country and embracing change and hope.

I love the first family and not because I am a huge Democrat. I love the fact that they have 2 young children, I love that he was on food stamps growing up and that his mom was a single mom. Now that we've got a President who understands everyday issues maybe there is hope for issues that matter most to me.

Ok...I had to say that since I've been glued to the tv all day long but you will be proud to know that I did tivo it long enough so I could go to the gym!

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Cold weather and comfort food go hand in hand....I think

Is it just me or do the cravings really kick into gear with the cold weather? Thursday and Friday were very hard for me with cravings. Everybody was talking about how they were going to grab food and bunker down and wait out the cold. When I think of comfort food to bunker down with I think of casseroles covered in cheese and fried onions or creamy rich soups but that isn't going to help BigGirl stay on track. Who says they're going to bunker down with salads and canned tuna? Thank god I had cleaned my cabinets out or else I would've binged big time on shit I didn't need. I had a miny binge with the healthy food I had in the house.

I've been analyzing myself this week to see how I am doing and I found out that my planning has sucked this week in general. It really is the key to being successful and feeling good about the change. I am great planning Monday thru Thursday's lunch but my goal for next week is to work better on planning the whole week. I've also got to start journaling my food and my water. I was talking to Newlywed yesterday about how things were going with me and her and we both were talking about what we need to work on and what was going great. I thought about it for the rest of the drive to work and realized that this is definitely a work in progress. Hopefully, I am creating a lifestyle change instead of being on a diet.

On the positive side though I've noticed that I look at myself different in the mirror. Instead of saying "Holy Hell what have you done to yourself" I am now looking at the mirror and saying "BigGirl I can tell in your face or look at my arms and say the guns are starting to form again". I walk taller and feel soooo much better already. I keep thinking about what I will look like at some of my events that I told you about in an earlier blog.

Here is an observation that I was talking to Alligator Molester #2 about this week who by the way needs a MAJOR shotout for her big decsion to quit smoking and signed up for the Monument 10K this week...You Rock. Men are idiots about this lifestyle change but I will give a shot out to Recruiter because he is rebuilding his body as well and is being very supportive but as most things that I complain about most men...he is an exception. The other night I fell of the wagon because of RedHead and then the other night HookUpMan was sad that I wasn't going to drink beer with him and then he says to me and keep in mind he isn't a smoker "and why did you decide to quit smoking?" Ummmmm this was the same man who told me a couple of months ago he hated me smoking.....but with him wanting to drink beer and be crazy on Thursday he didn't like the new behavior. He sure didn't complain about the new aerobics behavior when I practiced some moves that Shirley T. taught me!

Speaking of Shirley T. I need to get ready for aerobics and then I am hitting the road and getting some loving from June Cleaver. I will be by myself in this aerobics class so maybe I will be able to concentrate but then again not having my friends there to distract me will do nothing about the problem I have with my feet and brain disconnect. June and I have already talked about the menu. She knows I am not eating any processed foods and she is ready for me to arrive!

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Aerobics with the Pink Team and Shirley Q.....I mean Shirley T.


The Pink Team had made plans to do Aerobics together at 7pm. I knew it was going to be crazy with all of us in there but I was thinking about the teacher we had on Saturday. WildOne was the first one there at the gym (she was trying to recover from Tuesday night) and I was greeted by her riding her bike. She was bored and glad somebody else was there. I tried to get my weights done but with GiGi checking in every 2 seconds and slow asses who can't figure it out it took longer that I wanted. The other 2 pink team members arrived and WildOne was happy. She was so happy that she knocked over all of the exercise balls and then looked at me like I had done it. As we were waiting to storm the floor and claim our spot we couldn't help but notice that our teacher resembled our favorite comedian Shirley Q Liquor. I knew I was going to love this class. She was teaching a pilates class and she would just roll all over the floor and talk about how she had to lose some more of her mesh and she wasn't talking about her clothes (shirley t. had a tire around her waist) before she did some of the exercises.

So we take our places up front and in the mirror again and we're ready....the pink team is here and fired up. She started talking and asked the rest of the class "if they were ready because she could only hear this side of the room".....why did she point to our group and why did we start cheering back to her and high fiving....hey at least we're excited for this class!

The music started and it was Snoop Dog so we were good to go and instead of aerobics we were dancing. WildOne showed us some moves that will make us never question how she gets her victims again. Imagine being in an aerobics class and your teacher saying "throw the booty girls" well we threw it and I am still walking with a limp today. Note to self...If you are imagining in your head you look great throwing the body to a man don't look in the mirror during an aerobics exercise class. I will be scared to throw the booty ever again because of the flashbacks I will have of last night's vision. The next song came on and she said "pardon me girls but this song says Coochie" I hope you don't mind. I don't think the Pink Team stopped laughing for a while. It was like adding Red Bull to our water. It was like we were in a beginner's class for strippers and if you can imagine Shirley Q stripping you can imagine our class.

There was a girl wearing a Kappa Delta T shirt who looked like she wasn't at all impressed with our behavior. Her shirt looked pressed, matching headband and her moves were so crisp and straight I thought she was a robot with a great wig. If you could've seen her facial expressions when Shirley T. told her to throw the booty you would've lost it as well. I just wanted to tell her to pretend she had taken some shots of Bourbon and she was at a late night fraternity party. I am sure she loved it when I would yell out to WildOne....throw the booty and she would laugh and we would high five. Mature...I know!

20 minutes of dance time had passed and I was loving life thinking I was the Queen of Aerobics. I thought I was on the dance floor grooving and I loved it until... it was time to add the step. At one point she had us going so fast I had no clue what I was doing. The Queen of Aerobics turned into a pool of sweat and makeup running down her face. I had looked so cute at the start of aerobics. Even though I looked a hot mess I thought I was doing it right until I looked up and I am facing WildOne and the rest of the class is turned opposite. There is a severe disconnect between my feet and my head.

We made it through the pilates part and we all did good at this even though at one point I was sure my leg was going to fly off and smack a pink team member in the face. BigGirl is a little sore today...I will not lie. Shirley T. might be a big girl, who sits down while teaching aerobics but she can work a girl out. I soooooooooooo can't wait until class next week!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Back on track!

Cigarettes: 0

I had a late meeting for work today and surprisingly enough they didn't stress me out so bad so I was in a good mood leaving there. I checked my phone to see what had happened during the meeting and WildOne had texted saying they were at BW3's. I thought about it for a bit and decided I wanted to see my friends and I had already had a train wreck for the week so I could surely handle it.

It was so good to see all of the Pink Team. I didn't crave any beer at all and the cigarette smoke made me want to gag. I am really hoping last night was my last rendezvous with Mr. Phillip Morris.

Guess what????? I think the whole Pink Team will be in attendance for aerobics tomorrow night. I really have to have my insurance card ready because either someone is going to trip, fall out from laughing so hard or there will be a collision on the gym floor. Stay tuned friends!!!!!

If that train falls off the track....

Cigarettes: 6 or 7

pick it up pick it up! A little Black Sheep for you on a dreary Tuesday afternoon. Well this train jumped the tracks last night but I am back on track again today. One of my friends called me on the way home last night and this is how the conversation went:

redhead: what are your plans for tonight?
biggirl: oh i am going to the gym to workout but we can cook dinner together around 7 or so.
redhead: i really need to talk right now. i need you.
biggirl: ok i am on my way...where do i meet you?

That is all it took for me to become a train wreck but as I was driving to meet him I thought am I really a train wreck for having a few beers with my friend? It is what we do. I've got to find balance in being healthy and living my life the way I enjoy it. I've thought about how I can kick it up a notch in the gym to work off those few beers I had and I will get it all straight.

I did smoke a few cigarettes last night and I think I am over that for good now. It made my head hurt like crazy this am and it wasn't even worth it!

soooo my train is back on track now.


Twas the month after Christmas,
and all through the house,
Nothing would fit me,
not even a blouse.

The cookies I nibbled,
the chocolates I'd taste,
At the holiday parties
had gone to my waist.

When I got on the scales
there arose such a score!
The number I saw,
I could not just ignore!

I'd remember the marvellous meals I'd prepared;
The gravies and sauces and beef nicely rared,
The wine and the rum balls, the bread and the cheese
And the way I'd never said, "No thank you, please."

As I dressed myself in my husband's old shirt
And prepared once again to do battle with dirt...
I said to myself, as I only can,
"You can't spend a Summer, disguised as a man!"

So, away with the last of the sour cream dip.
Get rid of the fruit cake, every cracker and chip.
Every last bit of food that I like must be banished
Till all the additional ounces have vanished.

I won't have a cookie, not even a lick.
I'll want only to chew on a long celery stick.
I won't have hot biscuits, or corn bread, or pie.
I'll munch on a carrot and quietly cry.

I'm hungry, I'm lonesome, and life is a bore...
But isn't that what January is for?
Unable to giggle, no longer a riot.
Happy New Year to all, and to all a good diet.

Monday, January 12, 2009

Change is everywhere!

Beers: 0
Cravings since last blog: 5 or 7 but some of those were foods that I read from Mimi's blog where she listed what she ate this weekend. You know BigGirl loves some Fried Chicken!

Wow!!!!!!! I got excited watching Oprah's best week ever series because she said "This is the year I think America will finally get it" and I think she is right. Everywhere I turn and look people are talking about getting healthy, stopping their addictions and 2 people I absolutely adore told me that they were about ready to quit smoking. One being my side kick at work and the other being basically like my sister in CLT...another alligator molester. I truly feel better already. I am still worried about the first time I drink but another former smoker (and alligator molester) got through it this weekend so hopefully I will be fine.

WildOne and I are going to meet at the gym tonight so I am sure that will be another good blog....another one of the Pink Team thinks she might join the gym with us. She is about as cooridnated as me so for you guys I hope she does join because I am sure there will be some good blogs coming from that train wreck about to happen. Stay tuned for Wed night or Thursday because she is going to join us for aerobics!!!!!! I am rolling right now thinking about this disaster...I need to go look for my insurance card because someone is going to get hurt!

On another note....if you want to go see a good chick flick....go see Bride Wars. Hilarious!!!!! I laughed so hard I worried about the people next to me being upset with me. It is definitely recommended and the last few words about friendship had the Pink Team in tears.

Rock on to kick ass in a school...I should really alert the Principals I've stopped smoking and I am on the edgy side!

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Aerobic adventures with the WildOne


I am going to save you all the willpower crap and how hard it was during staff meeting but just know it was pretty freaking hard and BigGirl wasn't too happy...especially after being so good and the damn purse wasn't there....oh well....let's be fun!

So WildOne and I were talking the other night and I told her she should come to aerobics with me today. I could get her a pass (which of course I forgot to do yesterday) for a trial visit. I arrived at the gym wondering if she was there and I look up and WildOne is bouncing down the aisle at the gym with her bright smile saying "I LOVE IT"...of course she had already met half the staff, investigated equipment and already signed up for a meeting with a personal trainer.

We waited for G.I. Jane to finish up a thousand crunches so I could do mine for the day and finally she left...I am the worst at waiting for equipment. WildOne was planning our workout schedule and trying to talk to me...couldn't she see I was gasping at air just to get thru my ab work....that's how she rolls...

Ok to set the picture of BigGirl and WildOne in aerobics picture Michelle and Romy 15 years after high school with about 50 to 75 pounds added to them and you've got us......ready to hear about our adventure?

The instructor comes up and glances are way...and smiles and immediately ask if she has beginners....ummmm no I was an extra in Buns of Steel....of course you Evil Puppeter! Luckily half the class was but I really didn't care because I was on the end and in front surrounded by mirrors...and I could see every roll, cellulite campground and it just made me want to work harder. I came to the realization that I am the most uncoordinated person in my state. I've done aerobics before but it has been a few years. My feet and my brain really need to work on their communication style. BigGirl and WildOne started off great and only laughed a few times in the beginning but once we added the step and WildOne started acting like she was at the club on a Saturday night trying to claim a victim I couldn't keep it together. I was suffering from lack of oxygen and WildOne started laughing so we were a hot mess but our teacher told us that if you have a hearty laugh it is good for you and makes you healthy so I guess me and WildOne are two of the healthiest big girls in the world!

We made it thru the whole class and I was so happy to be able to spend time with WildOne because she is one of my favorites. We headed to Ukrop's for a salad since it was lunch time and we figured we were high and our endorphins were going crazy. I was worried that we would be asked to leave since that has happened before with us at your neighborhood bar and grill. WildOne becomes a member on Wednesday....hopefully we will be as dedicated to the gym as we've been dedicated to our Wednesday Happy Hours!!!!!!!

Rock On WildOne!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, January 9, 2009

I Rock!!!!!

I tried to post last night but my computer was being stupid.

I did desserts, no drinks and no cigarettes. I will be buying my purse immediately after the staff meeting ends this afternoon.

The staff meeting was rough, union meeting was rough and working in a small group with the most negative person in the world was rough.

I woke up this morning and decided to knock the gym out today but it was a little rough because I had let my ipod die.

anyway I promise a fun blog this afternoon or tonight. big girl is tired and has had to behave in staff meeting so i haven't been able to write during the day when i am at my best.

thank god it is friday and many thanks to the text messages during the staff meeting to keep me on track! smooches!!!!!!

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Purse Update

We just got done with lunch and I had salad, chicken and fruit. No dessert even though everybody else at my table had it. HipMom is right beside me and she is chowing on chocolate does she stay size 2........

Ok the meeting has started......peace out. I am already planning what outfit I will wear with my new pocketbook.....

Wednesday, January 7, 2009



today was a rough day in the world of big girl. i woke up to a screaming alarm clock and I immediately hit snooze and all I could hear was pouring down rain. I kept hitting snooze but was able to make it out of bed and then made it to the gym. my muscles were a little sore from the workout the other day but I pushed through the pain. my squats are what I do first so I can get the ugly part of the workout done but it turned ugly when the old bitties kept jumping in front of me and getting on the exact machine I was going to move to next. anyway i got thru it and did cardio. if i didn't have an ipod i don't know if i could do it.....thank you santa.

today a group of colleagues got together to talk about change and what we want to see in our association. i was running late and had road rage but when i got there it was all gone away. my colleagues are unique, talented....i could go on for hours but basically you want to open wine bottles and just drink and discuss all the issues. they're the only people who understand my work and stress. i had NO alcohol. HipMom hosted the event and she is quite fun to throw some drinks back with...but I was good. Well we're going through some reorg and rumors started to leak out and my stress level went through the roof. I wanted a cigarette soooooooooo bad on the way home and I didn't have any.....wooohoooooooo!

WildOne and HookupMan texted today about having beers and after hearing the rumors all I wanted to do was go down beers, smoke some cigs and flirt but I am at home in my pj's writing to my trainriders.
Tomorrow is going to be just as rough. My Southwest Boys will be wondering where I am at breaks waiting for them to light me up. Rumors will fly, dinner will be paid for by the employer and drinks will flow. If I make it thru tomorrow without a drink and a cigarette I am going to buy that new purse that I put back last Tuesday.
I am exhausted from working out, rumors, road rage but I think from fighting cravings......stay tuned to see if I will be buying that new purse!

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Biggest Loser

Beers: 0

I just did a budget meeting with this crap going on in my state and if it isn't enough to make me smoke I don't know what is....well the witch that was at the meeting is another reason but 2 of my favorite people were there and I swear everybody is getting on the bandwagon of being healthy. My 2 favorites are giving up sodas and cutting back....

Traffic sucked with the weather and of course I wasn't prepared for how hungry I would be when I got home. I went to Ukrop's and you know their chicken was calling me but I said a big FU to the chicken and went to the salad bar. I was so good and the reason was because my new best friends were on the cover of People (I saw them on the TODAY show so that gives me reason to call them BFF's.)

Ok can we discuss Biggest Loser.....I am watching it as every person who is trying to lose weight in America. I have severe issues with this show but BFFASS loves it and sucked me into it. I am all for the Pink Team for my reasons. I will decide in the next few weeks if I will keep watching it because it is crazy that people can lose 30 pounds in one week. I know it is all they do all day long and but seriously. I would be let go from the show for smacking Jullian in the mouth. I would have to be on Bob's team so I could flirt!

Ok I am off to get ready for bed. Oh and send me major mojo for the next 3 days. I am in committee meetings, staff meetings and all that great stuff. Rockstar isn't going to be there so I need to figure out who can be my killer eye.....please send me text messages of encouragement throughout the 3 days!

Goodnight Train riders!

Fun isn't lost and 3 new finds!

Sorry I didn't post last night but Big Girl was tired after her first day back to work and YES I made it to the gym but here is the count from yesterday!
Beers: 0
Cigarettes: 0

I am feeling a lot better about this whole lifestyle change. I am not sure if it is the sleep that I finally got, getting back into a routine with the holidays being over or realizing that a lot of fun people are on the healthy train.

Let's face it...a lot of us are in this position because we are fun people. I have often told people that I don't like to do things unless they're fun. I know a lot of my weight has come from being fun and partying. By this I mean my cherished Milla Lites, dinner parties where you drink, eat and discuss all night long, not caring what I eat while and after partying (wings, cheese fries anything else the Pour House has on their menus) and not exercising because I was partying too much to care or hating life after the party stopped. I think I am going to be able to do this because I am going to associate it with fun....bear with me and hear me out.

Alligator Molestor, BFFASS and I are writing blogs about this and I love to read and everybody knows that I eventually want to write a novel so this is something I enjoy. Newlywed and I talked this morning about sharing new finds with each other and being each others person to talk to about food i.e. new foods, new recipes and disasters. My boss is on the healthy train as well and she always has fun new food things to share. I know you corporate people get sick of hearing about the rockstar boss but it does rock when you have a supportive one. I just wish she would be there at the staff meeting this week with her "look of shame" if you go for dessert.

I've been worried about not being fun or feeling like I am having fun during this lifestyle change. Fun is who I am and probably one of the most important feelings to me so the fact that some of my favorite people are on the healthy train with me makes me excited.

New Finds
1. I am trying it now because it lets you keep your food journal and what I like is it breaks your food up into a pie chart. i.e. protein, carb, fat....

2. She is from Australia and her book just got released in the US. loves her and her daily blog is a she loves Bon Jovi!

3. Sign up for the podcasts that she is going to do with Bob Greene next Monday night. They will be talking about recipes and nutrition.

Okay I am off to work on budget crap in my districts...if you know anything about what has happened to education funding in my state you will see why I am thinking weight loss can be fun!!!!

Monday, January 5, 2009

Hot Disaster...

is what I am today. I got in bed at 10pm thinking I would go right to sleep and be able to wake up for my workout and that didn't happen. What did happen was I laid awake till about 2am. I tried everything to get me to sleep and I mean everything. I laid down and it was like my brain woke up. I slept so much better when I was in alcohol induced comas and smoking like I wanted lung cancer that day.

Needless to say when the alarm went off this morning I was a not the Barbie Doll that jumps up to go workout that I had imagined I would be....I was more like Medusa, who was on the verge of killing a village. I hit snooze and realized I could go this afternoon. So I had to pack my work out clothes to bring to work. I was just a tragic trainwreck this morning. I couldn't figure out what to wear, putting on makeup seemed like a chore and god forbid I have to pack my lunch.

I can't wait for this to be more of a routine and me to get the hang of it. I can't think about this anymore because I think it stresses me out and that is why I can't sleep....who knows. I am already tired of talking about it but yet I sit here and right a blog about it before lunch time.

I was worried about the smoking at work because it is when me and my assistant talk mad smack. She is trying to cut back as well and she is wanting to lose weight......seriously she is a size 6 on a bad day. She said the holidays weren't kind to her so maybe she could be a size 8...that heifer!

I will say I am excited to see what Oprah has to say this week with her Best of 2009 week. I know my fellow alligator molestor is kinda not happy with her about this week but I am interested in hearing what she says....Oprah in my book ranks right behind June Cleaver when it comes to believing. Will be interesting.......

How many minutes to lunch time? Big girl is hungry!!!!!!!

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Back to the grind!

Beers: 0
Cigarettes: 0

18 Days of vacation are over and tomorrow starts lots of stuff. Morning routine at the gym, packing lunch and eating breakfast are my big things that I am going to focus on. Lots of friends are gearing up as well so I am not by myself. I will be honest I am actually looking forward to getting into a routine and not having hours to think about the food I should not have at that moment. I do much better in a routine but I will miss hanging with Ella Bella during the day while I am reading, sleeping or watching one of my tv marathons.

I want to share with you. It is amazing and FREE! It sends you emails about health tips, success stories, gives you diet plans, fitness plans but more important it tracks your fitness goals and weight goals. I can't believe it is free because the amount of information, support and tracking tools. Weight Watchers, South Beach and all those other places charge you a monthly fee and is FREE!!!!!!!

Speaking of free....eating healthy sure isn't free or cheap. I threw everything out of my cabinets, frig and hiding places so I needed to replace it today with healthy food. Why is fruit so expensive but a bag of chips is basically FREE!

Ok good luck to everybody who is heading back to work as well tomorrow! Alligator Molester....good luck with the running and tell Deac I love the vest!!

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Day 2 of Detox

Beers: 0
Cigarettes: 0

So it is Saturday night and I am at home detoxing playing on IM with the BFFASS while some of the Pink Team is making the circuit at some of our favorite places tonight and I am pretty happy about it. I miss the Pink Team but I am very thankful that they're understanding. Well really it is Wild One, who was supportive tonight. I told her how I really wanted to go out but I am trying so hard to be healthy and if it was next weekend maybe I could go out with being in the middle of the detoxing I volunteered to be the DD and told them to call me when they were ready. I know it is only Day 2 but when you get a picture text message from your fellow alligator molesters in CLT at 3:30pm drinking beer then you really start to crave it. I will be interested to see if I make it to Jan. know big girl love her milla litas! I haven't had a marlboro light since Mimosa time on Thursday but I can tell that I am starting to crave one so there is really no way in Satan's House could I go out tonight!

Instead of being out and about and drinking 1500 calories and smoking tons of cigarettes I am registering for 2 races in the Spring. I think this will also help keep me motivated with being healthy but BFFASS is currently talking about how crazy we can get after the races!

I will have to tell you the bad thing I did today...I cleaned the hell out of my house and I had been upstairs working and ran downstairs to get a glass of water. Well when I opened the freezer I saw a pack of M&M's and immediately tore them open and downed a handful. I am not even concerned about this at all.

Ok I have to go register for the last race! If I am not on here tomorrow you know Satan's House froze over with me staying in all weekend and being DD!

Friday, January 2, 2009

This Year!

I originally came here to tell you about what I was doing this year and instead I rambled about the Pink Team's New Year's Eve transformation.

Ok I know I need to be losing the weight to be healthy and all that great stuff but let's be serious and admit vain reasons are great motivators and I have quite a few and the good thing is that they're spread out all across the year to help me stay motivated.

January-ZTA girls trip to the mountains. I want my girls to be able to tell a slight difference.

Febuary-2 Louisburg College reunions and we haven't seen each other in over 10 years.

March-It starts getting nice in Richmond and I will want fun new spring clothes for all the outdoor festivals.

April-Strawberry Hill, I turn 35 and Coco has informed me her mom gave the time share to us to take a trip so I have to be in a bathing suit and flirt with hot cabana boys who want to rub oil all over my goddess body....ok I got carried away on this one!

May-Rachel's first communion and I am Godmomma (I know what were they thinking?) and I want to be a knockout in the family pictures.

June-My high school class is having a get together and the first boy to make me go crazy will be there and I want his chin to drop and for his wife to be scared!

July-Pink Team beach trip and I don't want to be a beached whale.

August and September....nothing yet!

October-walking 60 miles for Breast Cancer in DC and losing every pound will help me.

November-Miami plays at Tech and this could be the year my gonads are big enough.

December-I don't want to have to worry about my weight going into 2010.

Hopefully I will be a lot better in my blog this year and will take pictures so you can know how I am doing with my goals for each month and if you want to give me something to work towards in August and September email me!

Happy New Year!

Wow! I can't believe it is here already. I am suffering some severe post party depression right now. This was probably one of my favorite new years in a long time. I was with the Pink Team at a bar that a close friend had rented out. We frequent it quite often and it was just tons of fun. The Pink Team looked amazing. We took extra time on our hair, our outfits, makeup and you could tell. We weren't there 10 minutes before men started coming up to our table telling us how beautiful the 5 of us were. The more one guy talked to us he fell deeper in love. He said he had never met a group like us. We knew we looked awesome and you could tell by the confidence level. So I've decided to really put an effort into my whole presentation. I might have some extra weight but I have the ability to accessorize better than most people!

This is my year to do a lot of things. The main one on my list is to lose this weight and become a lot healthier than I am right now. I have to cut back on the milla lites and the marlboro lites. Right now I think I deserve a medal because I am not going to the Beach House with some of the Pink Team. The Pink Team talked about what our personal goals were going to be this year. Mine was to become healthy all around...

I was a complete alky yesterday and woke up and began drinking mimosas so I am thinking I have no regard for my goal but it was a great night and we weren't ready for the party to be over. I am trying to make it till the 17th before I have alcohol. I've read if you can detox that long it can really jump start the weight I am going to try out the theory!

My BFFASS sent me a link to a fun website I want to share with you. She is gearing up to start her program tomorrow. This is a website that can give you fun workout mixes. I stated in my last blog that music got me through it. It helped me remember some that I needed for the new could I have forgotten sorry Andre!