Never Again

Thursday was the first day of our 2 day staff meeting and I love staff meetings. I work in a satellite office by myself so getting a chance to be with my other colleagues is always something I look forward to...I know I am the only person in the world who loves a staff meeting.

Flash back to the January blog about my staff meeting where I was so great and didn't eat anything bad and promised my trainer that I wouldn't do happy hour. Well none of that happened this staff meeting. I was a disaster and it was disgusting. I ate a dessert at lunch, reeses pieces, jelly bellies and swedish fish for snack time. I attempted to do happy hour but my body started shutting down 2 beers into it. It was the most bizarre thing ever. I started sweating, I had to sit down and I couldn't focus on what anybody was saying and all I thought was I am going to die and I don't want to do it in public. I asked my colleagues if they would mind if I left and they could tell I didn't feel good and kept saying "it is great your body is rejecting this stuff." Ummmm, it sure didn't feel great at all.

I got home and made it to bed and prepared to die. I literally felt that bad. I threw up and then prayed to God my old prayer but substituted "never eat sugar" with "never drink again" if he allowed me to live. I finally passed out in a sugar coma. The next morning I woke up and still felt like crap. I could barely function in staff meeting. I had to exercise to get this crap out of my system so Rusty, who had no clue what I had done, said I could do my three miles early. I then had to go represent a teacher at a late meeting and was so worried I would pass out in the meeting. One former colleague fell asleep in a meeting with administration and notice I said former.

I felt my biggest accomplishment of my life was living through the day and making it home. I went over to my neighbors and almost threw up when I saw them drinking beer and they're nurses so I told them what I had done. They were so shocked to see me so calm on a Friday night. I was still outta sorts on Saturday but it is Sunday am and I am back to normal......well as normal as I can be and I will never ever misbehave like that with food again! I am pretty shocked at how the food affected my body but more so I am wondering if I felt like that before but just felt it more often. I have really taken in account how my body does feel. I am not a fan of drinking anymore simply because I hate the way it makes me feel and now I can add sugar to the list.

The ironic thing is early on Thursday am my colleague sat beside me and she had a cookie for breakfast. I know she is trying to be good as well and I said "let me go get you something healthy, that cookie will destroy you." I got us a hard boiled egg and fruit. 2.5 hours later I get buck crazy.........WHY? I can think about that for a bit I just know I will never do it again!

Countdown is on!

I've been quiet because work life is anything but quiet. There isn't really anything earth shattering either to report. I am still soda and coffee free. Monday will be 6 weeks completely free of soda! I do feel like I am in a coma at times and forget the craziest of things. Today I got dressed and ready for a bridal shower and went to punch in the address to the GPS and realized it was at 2pm not 3pm. It was 2:30 at that moment in life. I am not sure to blame that on my withdrawl as Tina and Kieth call it or idiocy?

St. Patrick's Day is coming on Wednesday and I am all about pretending to be Irish and I will be at boot camp doing cardio circuit. I know it is hell impending but I am actually excited to see how far I've come since we started this boot camp.

I could tell significant difference in my body during this past Wednesday night's cardio kickboxing. I thought we would be in the gym boxing and so forth and when Rusty told us to go outside and run I was like WTF. He said "Have you ever seen Rocky? He runs and trains Robin." I didn't say but all I could think is well he also gets in a ring and fights till he is a bloody hot mess and I don't want to do this. I did it and was excited I lived through the class.

Fun note. Last night we had Stretch X and Rusty was in so much pain that it was visible. I know I've wished Rusty pain in previous posts but Rusty is training for his first triathlon. I am not sure why in my sick and twisted mind that this makes me want to push myself but it just proves to me that even he is always pushing himself to better himself. Just because you're fit you can't stop...always go for more. I am starting to ramble so peace out!

Random

My boyfriend Dave said this today on Twitter: Holy crap I had no clue what I was doing to my body! Do you take 12 sugars in your coffee? With the Starbucks mocha frap you do--& 28 with a McD's shake! http://bit.ly/56OpPq

Biggest Loser is on my nerves......they were irritated they had to go work regular hours.....hello people that is what normal people do! All I know is I don't think I could ever vote any of the boot campers out of class.....seeing them each week is what gets me there half the time!

I'm freaked out

I did what Keith told me to do and I've researched Excitotoxins and they're so damaging to your body. This is exactly what I am going through right now and it talks about the damage to your body and the long term affects. They've been linked with Parkinson's and Alzheimer's....one of my biggest fears in life.

Read the article if your interested.

http://www.rense.com/politics6/excito.htm

and here it is in simpler terms

http://www.funimky.com/downloads/EXCITOTOXINS.pdf

Mindboggling!

So tonight at boot camp we had Tina, the nutritionist, come back for follow up and her partner Keith came as well. My mind is still spinning from what I learned and I think I have decided that I need to set up an appointment with her to go over what is happening in my body. Tonight was one of those nights where you think "Thank God for boot camp". I've learned so much and getting it on track takes time.

We talked a lot about the food that we put in our body. Keith said that food either makes energy or blood. That was news to me. I might have learned that in Health but I was shocked tonight. He simplified it by saying look at your plate of food and does it have life? This made sense but it also reaffirmed that I clearly need one on one time with them.

They talked a lot about inflammation and hyper thyroid. I have no clue where I go on that spectrum so I need them for that as well. You can be eating the healthiest food but if your body is outta wack you won't lose weight. You need to eat to balance out and this is why I think I need them in my life!

So they kept saying when people would ask about cutting things out "give it 21 days" and I finally said "it doesn't get better after 21 days" and I told them that I am 34 days with no sodas and I've fully given up the coffee and I basically feel like I am in a coma half the time and I wake up and I realize where I am. Donna said she was going through the same thing. Keith looked shocked and said that basically I am detoxing from neuroexictants and it is like fighting a drug addiction. Tina said she did this as well and finally after 30 days she started to feel better. She said it will take 3 months for my body and mind to realize I can live without it but Keith scared the crap out of me because he said "that I don't want to give into my cravings because it can make me incredibly sick and cause harm to my body". Another reason I think I have to go visit them ASAP.

If this wasn't a buzzkill enough...Keith calls ice cream a bowl of snot because of what it does for your body! Ughghghghghgh!

Reassurance

I am going organic in my meat and my latest crush http://twitter.com/DaveZinczenko confirms I am doing the right thing. "TERRIFYING The avg piece of chicken has 266% more fat than it did in 1971, while its protein content dropped 1/3rd."

Yesterday he confirmed that my trainer, Rusty, knows what he is talking about. "For great abs--and to protect your back--do 60-second planks instead of sit-ups."

If you aren't following this guy you're really missing out on some great info!

I am really excited to see my nutritionist today. I can let her know I am 33 days free of soda. I did want a Coke Zero so bad I could taste it and I think I am 10 days without WaWa coffee. I can't wait to tell her about my blood pressure as well!

Peace Out!

I drank the Kool Aid

I just signed up for two private sessions with Rusty, who is my trainer at boot camp. Last night I was thinking how I was about to start the last month of the 3 month program and how I need to push myself really hard and honestly I think I need my trainer to do that for the results I want to see on the 26th. I've been working out on my own but I never have the "after feeling" that I get from boot camp when I workout by myself so I emailed him and said I want the one on one training. BossLady had a personal trainer and highly recommended it and I just talked to my WorkHusband and he said it is the hardest workout you will ever do so I am a little scared but I keep thinking I want this and it is only an hour.

Will let you know how it goes!